Sunday, December 5, 2010
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The Many Faces of Carla Gallo
Friday, December 3, 2010
Freelancing!
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Do NOT miss Fringe tonight!!! Check out this trailer!!
Friday, October 22, 2010
My daily emotional dump...
The last couple years have showered me with shit. Shit that equals challenges such as car accidents, assaults, physical and emotional turmoil...and I do tend to get stuck underneath it. I try to keep the smile (although it's no longer mine), the laughter and the overall entertainment value high (even if it's delivered in a mixture of "it's all about me" and "I hate people"), but I am not always successful.
While I've been living in this post-apocalyptic Carissaism, trying to be everything and nothing to all people, I have this one nagging date creeping in. November 1st. We are moving our office to an incredible new location...25th floor, awesome views. A really great space. Of course I'm in a fishbowl, the only inner office in the suite and walled with glass, but outside of that, it's a great change. Stressful getting there, but the payoff should feel fabulous.
What else is happening on November 1st? That's the next potential parole hearing date for my ex who doesn't yet know he's an ex. The man who assaulted me. The one I truly thought, given some time to stew in his own juices, would grow up, realize what potential beauty he had in life and change. Ok - I was an idiot with flights of fancy. I had no real belief he would be able to change, it was just that basic human emotion - hope. I wanted my assault, my pain and loss to actually mean something. Turns out I'm just like every other victim of crime. A victim. No lofty changes will be gained from my pain, no good will be gained. His children still will not have a father. I will never have the movie-moment ending. No thank you for standing by him, trying to get him help even after he violated me. No nothing. But I let the fucking entertainment crap I watch so effortlessly to lead me to believe some good could come out of evil. Jokes on me.
Last week the inmate tracker system was down. I lost track of my inmate. I thought maybe he was out. And all of my bravado swirled down the drain. I was absolutely paralyzed. Then I got a long, long letter. The ramblings of a man in pain, a man who cannot see the forest through the trees, still not willing to let the light in and see his own contribution to what his life has become.
So. November 1st. Big day. I have no idea what it holds. And it's scaring the shit out of me.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Know what's wild? Not knowing if it's your age, culture or just overall differences that get in the way of something really cool. Ten years ago I met an awesome person online. He was far, far away. But that didn't stop us from connecting on a very deep level. He may not know it, but I've considered him one of my very best friends ever since. Just recently I had a similar opportunity and an equally deep connection. It was squashed after two weeks. I connected with this person in so many ways, but it was withdrawn without any understandable endgame. Can you share too much? Is it better to leave some things left unsaid? When is truth worse than lies? Meeting people online without the benefit of face to face contact can really challenge your every move. I didn't win this time, in spite of a feeling of trust I haven't had in a long time. Such is the game we call life. We can only hope that by giving the best, most truthful parts of ourselves, we will prevail. Unfortunately, it doesn't always work out that way. I hope the rest of you have better luck and form lasting friendships in this new frontier. Love and kisses to all...
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Trust me, there's no such thing as Sharktopus!
Oh really? Just how dumb do you think I am? Do you think I don't watch TV? OF COURSE there is a Sharktopus! I am right in the middle of watching this badass creature do some serious damage. The title of this post? Yeah, it was said right before a sharktopus reached up and grabbed a man off the side of a boat, squeezed the guts out of him and ATE him. So, there's that. I never thought of octopuses as being that aggressive, but when you've got eight massive tentacles on a shark hell-bent on a murderous rampage, you have yourself a killing machine!
Eric Roberts somehow found himself the star of this awesome Syfy original, and he is a very, very bad man. Mr. Roberts has a way about him and I just tend to believe he didn't even know he was being filmed. Something was awfully fishy about this whole "movie." He has been taking money from the government and using it to "tweak" the animal his daughter (who looks nothing like Emma) worked so very, very (yes, there are a lot of very verys here ... lots) hard to create. And did he tell her he manipulated her genetic-y stuff? Nooooo. Why would he do that? Poor sharktopus, probably a real love at heart, was made into a monster by her loving father. Daughter must have had an English mother, because although she was American, she had one hell of an accent. She tried really hard to sound American, so I figure her school friends must have made fun of her and her funny accent.
Anywho ... sharktopus really WAS a nice shark ... err ... octopus ... critter. In the first scene, when he was still wearing this mouth brace thingy and responding to commands from Ms. English Daughter Scientist Girl, he pulled back and saved a chick from a regular shark when he could have had a nice, tasty bikinied treat in his grasp. How nice is that? Everything went awry when he shook off his mouth guard. I have no idea how they got film of all of these people being killed by a sharktopus, of all things, but they did!
This really unattractive girl (who had a boyfriend -- oh really??) was afraid of heights, but her boyfriend made her bungie jump over the ocean. She loved it so much she did it TWICE. Well, doncha know, second time that blasted sharktopus just jumped and ate her right up. I saw it -- live! OMG. He was apparently so turned on that he tried to eat a Volkswagon off the cliff by pulling it down with his tentacles! That's what makes sharktopus so deadly. Dude can walk, climb, grab, chew and even growl. Growl!
OK, OK. I know. There is no such thing as a sharktopus. But, there really should be. There is no reason I can think of that all of these vacationers should get to spend their hard earned money and have a good time when I don't. I love that in spite of the recent resurgence of his career, Eric Roberts still gives it his all for a good B movie. I love that Syfy has not given up the ghost amid the naysayers who said Syfy, um, jumped the sharktopus by keeping the cheese alive. Growing up with Saturday and Sunday afternoon creature features made for some great memories. If I had kids, I'd make them watch Syfy with me all weekend. If nothing else, they'd learn respect for the unknown and would be scared as hell to do anything they shouldn't. Those naughty kids always get eaten in the end. Booyaa!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Reactions over Ariz. law ruling range from relief to rage - USATODAY.com
Newsflash! Arizona is not hostile to Hispanics, but to ILLEGAL Hispanics. There is a huge difference.
If all of the illegals are such great people, then why didn't the follow the rules to come here, like so many of their fellow countrymen and others from countries outside of the North American continent have done?
I like to welcome healthy, law abiding visitors to apply for citizenship, not those who don't have the guts to put it all out on the table in their desire to be an American citizen. Nor do I enjoy those who want our country to become more like the one they ran from, instead of assimilating to the one that beckoned in the first place. If where you were was so fabulous, then you would have stayed. Because it is not, then embrace the American culture while preserving your own, like so many generations before you. I don't think this is too much to ask.
I like amnesty - for everyone who has already started the citizenship process and have waited for approval. If we're going to "fix" the system, then lets start by showing our appreciation to those who have followed our laws.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
APPALLING!!! Court Upholds Expulsion of Counseling Student Who Opposes Homosexuality
This is completely unacceptable. At this point, there is not even a compelling argument for biological homosexuality. Until there is definitive proof of that biological element, people have a right to believe what they want to believe. They can believe in homosexuality, or they can choose not to believe.
The problem here is, again, someone saying that we HAVE to think like everyone else thinks. No, unkind sirs, we do not. If a student doesn't believe the holocaust was real, are they denied an education because of it? I would certainly hope not. Believing in God is as rational as believing in aliens - should one of those students be denied an education based upon their beliefs? No. Students should be able to logically argue ANY point and remain in school.
To take away supposition and debate is to squash all intellectual and educational expansion. If someone in the future wants to deny said student of a position at their school, that is their right. But the right to an eduction should NEVER be based upon a student's belief system.
Cemetery Agrees to Let Father of Fallen Soldier to Fly Flags
This is one of those instances where something just pops out at you. I've been slowly rewatching Six Feet Under. I heard a commercial for Dignity Memorial on the radio today, and it reminded me of the big chain of funeral homes that wanted to buy out Fisher & Sons. The crass blond dude who kept bothering them at the most inappropriate times.
I was quite shocked today to hear that most of the formerly family-owned funeral homes in Denver had been taken over by Dignity Memorial. Imagine my surprise when I read this article through, only to find out at the end that it's run by Dignity Memorial. I even hate the name. Go Fisher & Sons! Save the family run funeral home!
Friday, July 23, 2010
This has gone too far; anyone agree?
I don't understand people being upset at prayer. Unless someone is requiring you to pray along side them, how is this anyone's issue but those who pray?
The same people who are dismayed that anyone would question someone's right to wear religious garb in a driver's license photo, for instance, out of the other side of their mouths they are saying that they find two people praying on their own offensive.
Just how is any religious practice offensive unless someone is mandating that you participate or, perhaps, offering up your lame ass as a religious sacrifice? Frankly, I'd like to offer up all of those offended as a peace offering to those of us who are so fucking sick of people thinking they have a right not to be offended.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
FOXNews.com - Feds to Monitor Obesity as White House Promotes Obama Cook to Senior Position
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Largest (fake) Breasts in the World May Be Killer
She has contracted a deadly staph infection and they have had to remove her implants, and may have to remove her own breasts, as well. Why can't people just be happy with what they have been given and avoid these needless dangers?
Plus - they look hideous and uncomfortable.
Apparently, Toyota Drivers Are Idiots
And how does the floor mat holding down the gas pedal count as a car defect? Anyone who has driven a car knows to make sure your mats are in the proper position to avoid situations just like those. Toyota can hardly be held responsible because an idiot has his mat up under the dash.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Campaign Heats Up to Move All-Star Game Out of Arizona Over Immigration Concerns
Frankly, I think this has gone too far. Illegal immigration is - hello - illegal. We need to stop handling criminals with kid gloves, whether they are illegal immigrants, domestic abusers or shoplifters. People know right from wrong, and if they choose wrong, they need to deal with the consequences. Its our government's job to ensure that law-abiding citizens are not paying for the crimes of those who are not law-abiding, and certainly those who are not citizens.
NAACP Targets Tea Party As Racist?
http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2010/07/13/tea-party-preempts-racist-resolution-condemns-bigoted-naacp/
Seriously - this is ridiculous. An organization for black people has the nerve to call an organization with no race orientation a racist group? Every group, NAACP included, has racists within their ranks. To try to shut down a new political voice because the president is black and to mark any group against said president as racist is completely out of line. The continued use of the race card is only a way to try to shut down the argument when there is no viable counter. Additionally, continually trying to blame anyone against Obama as a racist actually makes matters worse and not better. Does nobody in this country think for themselves any more? What a huge disappointment.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Excerpt from a nightmare
Friday, July 9, 2010
Rioting in Oakland after cops verdict
What I do know is that if this kid had not been in a fight, and had not been resisting arrest, there wouldn't have even been a reason for the cops to be there, let alone use a taser, and mistakenly (or not) a gun. If the cop had walked into the station and shot a man lying on the platform who had no other reason to be there, this would be a tragedy. As it stands, why was he resisting arrest? When a cop says you are under arrest, you comply. You don't rebel and add another charge to the books. Especially if you have not done anything wrong.
Simply by resisting arrest he put his life in danger. First the fight, then resisting arrest. Everything else that happened snowballed from there.
Monday, July 5, 2010
Secret Life of the American Teenager, I'm still a sucka for ya
They are not down as in depressed, but really losing the sweetness that was underlying in to many of them. In tonights episode, after Amy goes to New York City just before the end of the school year to attend a prestigious musical program, the entire school has determined she is pregnant again. And they are all talking. "All" includes teachers, as well. Its no wonder they all gossip like crazy - even the damned gym coach thinks its his place to discuss the personal lives of students with other students.
The two characters most changed this season are Ben and Ashley. Ben, faced with the pregnancy of Adrian after a one-night stand has become a complete stooge. For a guy who was stupid enough to fall in love with a girl (Amy) just from looking at her, before even knowing she was pregnant with someone else's baby, he is completely unprepared to deal with his own situation. He says inane things like "what am I going to do with a baby?" Mind you, he says this to Ricky, of all people. Ricky who has stepped up to the plate for his own child in a what that would be enviable of any character on television. Watching Ben become such a pathetic wretch is difficult because I never liked him to start. They basically took the one quality he had and squashed it.
Ashley was the spunky girl with undeniable truth on her side. Once she decided she liked the father of her sister's baby (Ricky), she started to lie to the people with whom she had always been very true. Her father for instance. Thankfully, he called her on it and she is doing a little better with him, but still hiding the feelings she has for Ricky, which will only cause everyone pain in the long run.
Now that Adrian is pregnant and wanting to have an abortion (tonights episode ended with she and her mom leaving for the clinic), I am really hoping Brenda Hampton has the balls to let her have the abortion. If not, its not only setting a very bad example for very young girls who find themselves in the position to make a life-changing decision, one that is a valid choice. I really hope religion doesn't come into play to the point that all girls are lead to believe they, too, will have supportive friends and families should they decide to have a baby. I think one family in the hood is a stretch, but neighbors? Talk about setting unrealistic expectations!
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Shit. My birthday is less than a week away.
All of the lofty dreams and ideas I have; ambitions, however small, the life in my imagination - I seem to sabotage it at every turn. I seem more content to suffer and wilt in silence than to pick myself up by my bootstraps and make something of myself. It's a horrible realization, knowing that everything I do not have is of my own making and my fear of success - I wouldn't know how to be really happy - keeps me from making a move.
I don't know what it is that has kept me from moving forward, but I've spent 20 years in a holding pattern; my life has continued but I've not grown with it. More horrifically, I only tend to realize this once per year, just a week before another has officially gone by.
Will this year be any different? Dare I try to make something of it before it's too late?
Friday, June 18, 2010
The Catcher In The Rye - The Elusive Script
The Catcher in the Rye 'to be made into Hollywood film' - Telegraph
Obama administration spends $1.2 billion on cycling and walking initiatives - Telegraph
It's fabulous to know where our priorities lie. Nobama spends over a billion dollars on biking and walking initiatives, but only $215 million to help combat domestic and sexual violence. Thank GOD he's committed to our most dire needs.
FOXNews.com - Obama Administration Planning to File Suit Against Arizona Immigration Law
What, exactly, will this lawsuit entail? "Hey! This is OUR job, and we suggest you don't do it for us!"?? This administration needs to get its head out of its ass. There is not one thing they have done yet that I agree with, and it seems that the majority of polls show I am not alone in feeling misrepresented.
Parts of our country are CLOSED DOWN due to the lack of balls on this and our past president. Closed down to US citizens. Part of the United States! Because of drug dealers and murderers being more safe for our soil than TRUCKS TO PATROL THE DAMNED AREAS!
What has happened to us? Where has our heart gone? Where is our desire to succeed, to protect our citizens, to be strong for the rest of the world when they need us? Instead we have our heads in the sand.
I'm embarrassed to be represented by this bunch of idiots.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
First time I've ever seen my BF in jail
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Livin the dream
Of course, I find none of this out via the Victim's Assistance person in the DA's office, because the DA's office is prosecuting on behalf of the state, not for me. But they'd still like to meet with me to prepare me as best as possible for what will happen when they put me on the stand.
I've decided they can all wait with baited breath on what I will say on the stand. Oh goody! Doesn't this all sound like FUN? Do yourself a favor, if you are ever attacked, don't leave until you have killed your attacker. You will be treated far better from that side than you will ever be treated as a victim
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
"Alleged Victim", Witness, it's a bunch of hooey
What bothers me the most is that I have absolutely no say in anything related to this case. I have no representation, and the defense and the prosecution can freely volley my name or classification (alleged victim or witness if they don't use my name) an no one is there to represent my interests. They can say whatever they want about me, and I'm not there to tell my side, or defend myself in any manner whatsoever. I am merely a pawn for the prosecution or defense. Something is horribly fucking wrong with that scenario.
Why does our justice system allow for no protection for a victim? Why don't I have an attorney who is there to ensure that nothing unseemly is said about me, and to protect my interests? To keep me from being the proverbial tennis ball lobbed from side to side...she was drinking, so her statement doesn't hold as much weight. Well, if he was drinking, then his statement doesn't hold weight either. So where does that leave everyone? Oh! I know! It leaves the defendant covered and the witness (VICTIM) standing naked in the wind. Uncovered, unprotected. Is that really justice?
Monday, February 15, 2010
Entertainment I can't live without
Not limiting myself to any particular number of any items, because in some cases I couldn't live without an entire catalog of a particular artist or an entire series. And you can fit a hell of a lot of stuff onto 32 GB, and is my damn world, so I'm taking as much as I can!
Aimee Mann. It was reading her tweets and realizing her music has not left my side in over 20 years that made me think of this in the first place. I can be incredibly down, and just to listen to one Aimee Mann song (whether through Til Tuesday or solo), can take me to a different place entirely. Her music is as ingrained in my life as any of my memories along the way.
Nelson DeMille. Entire library. There has only been one book by DeMille that I didn't thoroughly enjoy, and it was a follow-up to one of my favorite books of all time, The Gold Coast. Really, he should have left it alone. I think that with so much time in between the original and the sequel, his life took just a different direction and where the characters would have ended up earlier was not where the ended up later. But so many of his books I can read again and again, that I would choose his to accompany me on my Droid.
(I must interrupt this post to tell you how much I despise the freecreditreport.com commercials. I'd rather be water boarded.)
Movies and TV are pretty easy to determine. I just did this, theoretically, by purchasing new Blu-Ray discs of movies I already had on DVD. I'll just list them. You can read into it what you want.
Final Destination series
Supernatural TV series
Friday the 13th parts 1 and 2
Live Free or Die Hard
Twister
Halloween
Cast Away (tips!)
Just Married
Charlies Angels (entire series not currently available, but its my world)
The Bionic Woman (I have it downloaded from some other country, so I'll take it!)
Marilyn Monroe (all)
In Bruges
Buffy the Vampire Slayer TV series
Ayn Rand. Entire library. It might not seem as relevant and important to me if I was alone with my entertainment, but her philosophy speaks so well to what I believe she should make the trip.
Counting Crows - August and Everything After
Theory of a Deadman and Three Days Grace catalogs.
I find myself entirely bored now. How pathetic is that. Right in the middle of a stranded island and I peter off. Since I don't think I'll be stranded any time soon, I figure I can finish this up later.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Android Apps I Can't Live Without - Part Deux
I seriously cannot believe that when I started out on my Apps post I was thinking of Flyscreen, and by the end I completely forgot to mention it. I guess it's because I don't have to DO ANYTHING to use it. My screen locks, and instead of just a worthless blob of plastic and metal, I have things to do! I use it for Gmail, Twitter, entertainment and news sites (must keep up with the Charlie Sheen case since my case as victim is in the same courtroom with the same DA and same Judge!) and Icanhascheezeburger... There are so many different things you can do with Flyscreen. If you have an Android phone, I highly recommend trying it out. Love love love!!!
PS - you can also follow them on Twitter!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Android Apps I Cannot Live Without
Music Related
Tunewiki - I've tried so many music applications. Its not that I didn't like the one that came with my Droid, because it does a fine job. I just like extras. An application that provides me with the lyrics of songs and allows me to blip to Twitter wins. Not only does it do that, but it seems to "read" the file properties of songs better than other players. I don't have near the "unknown artist" issues utilizing this library than I do with other programs that I've tried and deleted. I was going to name them for you, until I realized that once I decided on Tunewiki, I deleted the others and my old mind flushed them to make room for more information! Oh - I almost forgot, right from the program you can choose to make any song your ringtone. Nice.
Shazam- Shit - this is the coolest application ever. I used to take pictures of my favorite songs and new bands on my satellite radio to remember what they were. Now I just press Tag Now and with the exception of TWO songs, it finds the song, artist, and will try to make the connection to YouTube or AmazonMP3 to purchase the song. I use this program more often than any other on my Droid. It has actually made an impact on my life. Seriously.
Album Art Grabber - It is so frakking annoying when you download something and the album art doesn't come with it. Or if your player doesn't bother to search the web for your art. Album Art Grabber actually give you an assortment of art to pick from. If I don't like the original cover, I can use one that was for a single. I like options.
MP3Tagger - since I sometimes get music from online "friends", it doesn't always come with the proper labeling to be seen in the right spot of my music library. This handy dandy tool lets you change the properties of MP3 files only so you can find the little buggers.
Other Stuff
I still haven't settled on a lot of things. For texting, I tried HandCent which seems to have a good rep, but there was just something annoying about it. I have now moved on to ChompSMS, but I'm not really sure what it is supposed to do. They want you to buy something or other (points??) to completely use their product, but other than that it just reminds me of HandCent, minus the bugaboos.
Tweeting was previously done with Twitdroid, but the free version doesn't support bit.ly, which is my favorite URL shortener. Today I switched to Seesmic, and it seems to be doing exactly what I want. If it falls by the wayside, I'll let you know!
I use Ringdroid to create ringtones from my library of music. You can pick whatever part of the song you like and trim it and make your ringtone. There were a couple others I tried, but this one works perfect every time, so I can't figure out why I would bother with anything else.
I use Jetflicks! (and you have to pay for it!) for TV and movie viewing. They have whole programs to view and when I'm at lunch or just hanging around the office being bored, I can watch a program. Yay! What could be bad about that?
There are a lot of other choices, but nothing that has been life altering. Not Android specific is Google Voice. The best thing about this is the voice mail transcription. I absolutely hate using the phone if I don't have to, and I really like receiving transcribed voice mails. I also like that I can record a call at the press of a button, that all of my other Google services are all tied together, etc. Android is fabulous when you actually utilize the Google products to the extent I do.
So there you have it. My contribution to the Droid application wars. Whoopthefuckindoo.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Is this meant to be an entrees or a side dish? Is it meant for families? I don't think it would work for either. Smallest portions EVER.
Yes, I'm now watching Chuck
The little show that could got renewed and my Twitter friends said that this year he would be a super spy. Okay, okay. I watched. And I enjoyed it! Chuck is still likable, but he's not bumbling any more. He has more confidence. There are less "the joke is on Chuck the silly Buy More spy" moments, and it suits the overall appeal of Chuck. I actually find myself looking forward to watching it. {Gasp!}
Admittedly, I wouldn't be upset if the Buy More portion of the show disappeared all together. With the exception of his best friend, the rest of the characters are annoying and clownish. The trend these days of working in the generic version of Sam's Club or Home Depot is to, I assume, show that no matter their super skills (RIP Reaper), our heroes are still just regular guys. In the "old days" Superman worked as a reporter, Wonder Woman was in the Military, The Bionic Woman was a teacher and even Electra Woman and Dyna Girl were reporters. Now our heroes work retail. I'm not sure what that says about the average American. Just sayin'.
Finally, I awoke today to a very shitty movie on Showtime. Shitty, but conservative; pro-America. Not a popular Hollywood trait. Turns out Zachary Levi was in it which, I will assume given the rest of the cast, makes him a conservative (I leave out Republican, because the best conservatives are Independents, like me). That made me look into Mr. Levi just a bit more, and it seems not only is he a nice guy, most likely a conservative in a sea of progressives, but he's also a devout Christian. Despite the fact that I don't relish organized religion, I find him even more appealing knowing that in this political climate and in his profession specifically, he goes against the grain. Makes me want to really root for his success, and gives me an even more compelling reason to watch Chuck.
Live long and prosper, Chuck!
Watch past episodes on NBC.com